being 20 something

here's a popular email forward i got awhile ago. it rings more true now than ever before.

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they call it the "quarter-life crisis". it's when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. you start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. you start realizing that people are selfish and that maybe, those friends that you thought were so close aren't exactly the greatest people you've ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

what you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are just as confused as you. you look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

your opinions have gotten stronger. you see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. one minute you are insecure, and then the next secure.

you laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. you feel alone and scared and ocnfused. suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling onto the past with dear life, but soon realize the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. you get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet someone decent enough that you want to get to know better. or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

one night stands and random hookups start to look cheap. getting wasted and acting like an idiot doesn't seem as fun. you go thorugh the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with you friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. you worry about loans, money, the future, and making a life for yourself. and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

what you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. we are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.