it all comes to this

D-day has arrived. It’s a cloudy day outside and inside.

I don’t feel japan is through with me. but am I through with it? So much mystery and nuance I just can’t quite grasp. It’s a beautiful place. There are many beautiful places.

If I go, I can never look back with regret.

Stay or go. It literally doesn’t matter. There is no sense of fate guiding this decision. Like it will take me to the same place regardless. And it will wont it? We will all end up at the same destination point.

So…I will stay. I will stay for another year. I’m going to stay. I’m going to stay. I’m staying in japan. And my heart is commited. Hold me in the solidity of the full knowing this is my life. Here I am. I am going to stay!!! I’m staying...